I'm a tool...

I was grumbly today.  Life wasn't sitting with me well and I was unsettled, about what I'm still not completely sure but it's probably a side effect of all the work that is going on inside of me.

When I got home from work and saw a post from an old friend telling me what a blessing I've been and how she was thanking God for using me in her life.

It melted my little annoyed heart!  What an honor it is to know that God is using me to help someone!  I know the Lord works through people everyday, but just hearing from someone tell me they're thanking God for me, humbled me.  I really didn't have the words to respond, I just felt so honored and loved.

I am truly thankful for all the Lord has given me and I welcome him to use me in people's lives.

Happiness and love!

Smartass Christian shines her lil light

So husband was giving me shit because I don’t know the Lord’s prayer.

After giving him the finger I thought “Does anyone really say it anymore??”

So I’ve came up with a daily prayer

Dear Lord

Please keep me from being a dumbass today

Let me help those who need help

And help me love those who piss me off

In Jesus name Amen

Happiness and Love

I did ride the short bus...

So sometimes I like to throw myself little pity parties, and get all bitchy and whiny that Husband doesn't do the little things to show me he loves me...but last night I finally figured it out!  Took me 8 damn years but I figured it out!!

The big duh moment occurred when we were cuddling in bed (which I nagged and bitched for hours for him to do)
 I could tell that he wanted to be in his recliner watching the military channel and I almost got all pouty and said "I can tell you don't wanna be here so go watch what you want" but then it dawned on me...this is him showing me he loves me

So I showed my appreciation by being quiet...for a minute or two


Happiness and love

My Country side

Ok I’m a dork

I have a thing for movie sound tracks.  My favorite part of some movies is the sound track.

So, sometimes when I’m bored I’ll hear a song and think “that could be part of my sound track.”  Sometimes when I’m feeling morbid it’s “they should play this at my funeral”

Right now I’m listening to country getting all nostalgic and warm and fuzzy about the past. ( I hope it doesn’t last long)

When I hear John Michael Mountgomery I think of my first “serious” boyfriend.  That poor dude…I dumped my crazy all over him. He earned the right to call me a crazy bitch.

Listening to Clink Black, Clay Walker or Mark Wills reminds me of my ex husband. There was equal crazy in that relationship.

Needless to say country music makes me remember some shit that I just don’t want to and don’t really need to.

Trisha Yearwood, Tanya Tucker, Pam Tilis, Alan Jackson, Garth Brooks, Toby Keith, Billy Dean, Brooks n Dunn, Tracy Lawrence, Tracy Byrd, Kenny Chesney, Faith Hill, Diamond Rio, George Straight, Travis Trit, Little Texas, Tim Mcgraw… Are just a few of the favorites I had.  On snow days I would spend all day watching videos on CMT and chat online all day, now I listen to Pandora and play on facebook all day.  My how I’ve grown.

(My level of embarrassment depends on who’s reading this)

I slowly eased outta that phase by listening to Ozzy Aerosmith and Metallica, but that’s for another post.  

I guess it's safe to say that some of the important parts of my movie's sound track would be country