Let me upgrade ya…

My friend with a purpose knew I was struggling with some issues in my life, so she sent me a link to some of Graham Cooke’s sermons.

This dude is brilliant!!! So funny, I laughed my worries away.(just what God wanted me to do).  God’s sense of humor radiates through this guy!

After listening to an hour sermon I learned that I need to embrace my struggles and look forward to my upgrade, when I over come them.  To be curious about what God is doing and what he has in store for me.

This gave me an image of my spirit following God around(as the little girl from Monster’s INC) sayin “whatcha doin?” every 5 minutes.

Be curious, be happy know that you are loved!!

I'm a tool...

I was grumbly today.  Life wasn't sitting with me well and I was unsettled, about what I'm still not completely sure but it's probably a side effect of all the work that is going on inside of me.

When I got home from work and saw a post from an old friend telling me what a blessing I've been and how she was thanking God for using me in her life.

It melted my little annoyed heart!  What an honor it is to know that God is using me to help someone!  I know the Lord works through people everyday, but just hearing from someone tell me they're thanking God for me, humbled me.  I really didn't have the words to respond, I just felt so honored and loved.

I am truly thankful for all the Lord has given me and I welcome him to use me in people's lives.

Happiness and love!

Smartass Christian shines her lil light

So husband was giving me shit because I don’t know the Lord’s prayer.

After giving him the finger I thought “Does anyone really say it anymore??”

So I’ve came up with a daily prayer

Dear Lord

Please keep me from being a dumbass today

Let me help those who need help

And help me love those who piss me off

In Jesus name Amen

Happiness and Love

I did ride the short bus...

So sometimes I like to throw myself little pity parties, and get all bitchy and whiny that Husband doesn't do the little things to show me he loves me...but last night I finally figured it out!  Took me 8 damn years but I figured it out!!

The big duh moment occurred when we were cuddling in bed (which I nagged and bitched for hours for him to do)
 I could tell that he wanted to be in his recliner watching the military channel and I almost got all pouty and said "I can tell you don't wanna be here so go watch what you want" but then it dawned on me...this is him showing me he loves me

So I showed my appreciation by being quiet...for a minute or two


Happiness and love

My Country side

Ok I’m a dork

I have a thing for movie sound tracks.  My favorite part of some movies is the sound track.

So, sometimes when I’m bored I’ll hear a song and think “that could be part of my sound track.”  Sometimes when I’m feeling morbid it’s “they should play this at my funeral”

Right now I’m listening to country getting all nostalgic and warm and fuzzy about the past. ( I hope it doesn’t last long)

When I hear John Michael Mountgomery I think of my first “serious” boyfriend.  That poor dude…I dumped my crazy all over him. He earned the right to call me a crazy bitch.

Listening to Clink Black, Clay Walker or Mark Wills reminds me of my ex husband. There was equal crazy in that relationship.

Needless to say country music makes me remember some shit that I just don’t want to and don’t really need to.

Trisha Yearwood, Tanya Tucker, Pam Tilis, Alan Jackson, Garth Brooks, Toby Keith, Billy Dean, Brooks n Dunn, Tracy Lawrence, Tracy Byrd, Kenny Chesney, Faith Hill, Diamond Rio, George Straight, Travis Trit, Little Texas, Tim Mcgraw… Are just a few of the favorites I had.  On snow days I would spend all day watching videos on CMT and chat online all day, now I listen to Pandora and play on facebook all day.  My how I’ve grown.

(My level of embarrassment depends on who’s reading this)

I slowly eased outta that phase by listening to Ozzy Aerosmith and Metallica, but that’s for another post.  

I guess it's safe to say that some of the important parts of my movie's sound track would be country

Gettin my Jesus on

With all the shit that people have to face in their lives abuse, addiction, wondering how they’re gonna pay rent or feed their kids…Why the hell do I fear what people say about me being a “Jesus Freak”?

I do NOT judge people for their beliefs but I know that certain people will talk shit about the new choices I am making in my life.

I’m finally ok with it!  Talk shit if ya want but I’m still gonna be me

The old me would’ve talked shit too so I’m not judging you for talkin shit :P

I’ve been spending a lot of my time watching the “God channel” (GMC).  7^th Heaven, Touched by an Angel and 227 are my line up.

 

I feel hopeful and stronger now that I’m taking out more of the negative and adding more positive in my life.  It’s a slow process but I’m doing small things like changing the music I listen to and the TV I watch.

I finally found a Christian rap artist that I like listening too!  It was a real struggle for me to find Christian music that didn’t make me feel guilty all the time and had a music style I liked—KJ-52 He seems like a smartass Jesus freak and I love it!

Do Yo Thang

Happiness and Love

Force Writing

Hibernation lasted a little longer than I intended.  I think it might be getting to me but I can't seem to make myself go to work.

My dog seems to love the fact that I'm home all the time but I think husband feels different.  Oh well, I'm forcing my ass outta bed tomorrow and I AM going to work!
Stop judging me! haha Husband hates it when I say that...

I have to be positive and not dread tomorrow.

Tomorrow is a gift, even if you want to return it...smile and say thank you!

Happiness and Love